Showing posts with label WWU. Show all posts
Showing posts with label WWU. Show all posts

Thursday, May 30, 2013

I Am day 9, I am created to be His vessel

I Am....

Created by the Creator of the Universe, created to be His vessel, used in His manner. 

I am Holy.

I am chosen.

I am redeemed. 

I am a sweet reflection of God's amazing power and I can live an life of abundant blessings when I am living a life committed to Him. I will experience joy beyond my understanding. I will experience a hope for a future, a future in fellowship with Him. 

But, when I allow my mind to control me I fall into a pit, my thoughts taking control like ravenous wolves. I must surrender these thoughts to the One and Only capable of relieving such an affliction. When I am able to do this, my relationship with Him will thrive and prosper in magnificent and remarkable ways. 

We must hold true to the above stated. We are so precious to Him. Once we have accepted our sinfulness, there is nothing that can separate us from Him ever again. After that moment the driving force in our life becomes having an intimate relationship with Him. He fulfills our every desire, our every need. Once we have Him, we have everything. Knowing that truth can be hard in our sinful state, which is why learning to have a relationship with Him is pivotal to our existence. Allowing Him into every aspect of our life--our laughs, our cries, our doodles on paper, our walks with the dog, our cooking, our showering--truly every waking moment. It strengthens us. 

He strengthens us. 

Read & reflect on Isaiah 60:1 & 2
Will you arise and be strengthened by Him in this sin clouded world?

Read and reflect on Luke 1:79
Will you allow the prince of Peace to guide your feet?

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

I am day 8, I Am a small creature

I Am......

A small creature in a huge world created by God's loving hands. I long to know Him and am passionate about understanding the greatness of God. When I focus on Him, I am able to grasp the vast, incomprehensible, mysterious infinity of God's wisdom, power, presence and love. The more I know about the greatness of God, the more I know the value in the love He extends towards me. There is a joy in my heart that comes from understanding how great He is. 

He has set kings on the throne, set our entire world into existence with a small breath from His mighty mouth, how much more can I trust Him to handle my little 'ol life? He is far more capable at governing my life and the joy that comes from knowing He can handle it without hesitation sets my heart on fire. 

Read and reflect on 1 Chronicles 29:10-13
Will you exalt Him to head of your life? Will you become a part of His glorious Kingdom?  

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

I am day 7, Understanding His great love

I Am......

A tiny reflection of the amazing power our God has. It's hard to wrap our mind around His greatness sometimes. It's hard to fathom how a real person could have been so perfect, and changed our lives in such immense ways. But, He did. And understanding the incredible love He has for us is pivotal in our walk with Him. We can't place Him in the governing position of our life if we don't know how much more capable He is than we are. If we don't begin to understand just how much power He has, then we can never revere Him and admire Him and trust Him and place our entire life in His capable and mighty hands. 

He reminds us over and over again in beautiful and eloquent ways throughout Scripture that He is the Alpha and Omega, the First and the Last, the great I Am, my Redeemer, Savior, Lord, Provider, Yaweh....the list could keep going and going and going because the truth is--God is exactly who we need when we need Him. He is so great He can be not who a neighbor needs, or who you needed last week, but EXACTLY what we need at exactly the right time. That's what is so incredible, He's not limited in any way, His power surpasses anything we can ever imagine. 

Read and reflect on Psalm 89:15
Will you walk by the light of His face? 


Read and reflect on Micah 7:7
Are you watching? Seeking? 

Monday, May 27, 2013

I Am day 5, Not of this world

I Am......

Not of this world. Living a life consecrated to God can seem difficult at times--especially in a world where we are constantly bombarded with ways in which we can depend on ourselves rather than God. This world pushes "self" and how great we are, what an impact we have, instead of how great He is and what an impact He has. There is nothing in and of ourselves that can achieve greatness--it is through the blessings of our great God that we can achieve what He sees fit. 

Sometimes it makes no sense to us, for His ways are far greater than ours. But we must always hold strong to the truth that He has a far greater plan for each of our lives than we could ever imagine. His plans are overrun by our racing thoughts and by the constant hub bub of this world. But, if we stay in constant communication with Him, surrendering each moment to Him, the overwhelming world has no affect on our life. 

Read and reflect on Isaiah 41:10
Do you feel dismayed, fear the unknown in this crazy world? How do you think depending more on Him can alleviate some of those anxious feelings? 

Read and reflect on Psalm 27:8
Are you seeking His face?

Friday, May 24, 2013

I am day 5, I am not who the world wants me to be

I Am........

Not who the world wants me to be. The world typically doesn't want on fire for Christ Christians--that usually brings about change in people when they are truly around those being led by the Spirit. The ideal Christian in the eyes of the world as a whole is one who ONLY goes to church and is there to come to when there is a crisis because there is undeniable proof that prayer comforts people in time of crisis. To see and accept the total changed person and love them, that is something the world has a tough time doing. But, a true and changed person simply lives their life every day to the beat of their ability, and when their ability run sour it is God who fills then. They love others, they admit when they're wrong, because they're human and wrong often. And they do nothing--not take a walk, a bath, comb their hair, watch a movie, fall in love, stay in love, live life--part from God. 

But, the enemy has blinded us as a whole from the beginning of time and it's only through Christ and the indwelling Spirit that we can regain that sight. Becoming this new person is simple and complex, magnificent and gut wrenching. It fights everything within us naturally to sit back and go with the flow. It sets us on a new path and typically that path is much much more windy than necessary because of that natural instinct to fight change. But change is precious and necessary when we are walking with Christ. 

We should be quick to remember as well that it is not the change someone else deems worthy, but what Christ deems worthy. It is a personal daily relationship with Christ and the Father and allowing His Spirit to convict us when necessary and simply communicate with us the rest of our time. He wants a heart relationship with us. He wants to be One that we can cry to, laugh with, yell at, question, but ALWAYS trust and ALWAYS know that His will is far greater than we can ever understand. This blind trust and true faith is something that is hard to spot sometimes when we are looking at a world so painted with sin. And this world when being painted by the enemy doesn't want a true and honest relationship with Christ because they haven't allowed the true Painter to begin painting their beautiful canvas yet. 

Will you allow Him? Or is your current canvas enough for you? 

Read and reflect on Jeremiah 18:1-4
Will you allow the grueling transformation? 

Read and reflect on Romans 12:2
Will you be transformed and renewed? 

Thursday, May 23, 2013

I am day 4, I Am Not

I Am Not......

Sarah is a 29 year old married mom of 4 who just accepted Jesus s her Savior. Sarah started attending a church about six months before her acceptance of Christ and upon entry to church the Sunday following her baptism Sarah felt uneasy and no longer excited about her new life with her Lord and Savior. Sarah was handed this flyer as she walked through the church doors:

“We are so excited about your decision to accept Jesus as your Savior, you are now a child of the King and must continue to show Him that you are worthy. Now that you are saved, please do not speak of your previous life, we do not want to hear about what a sinner you used to be. Do not drink. Do not wear pants. Do not wear makeup. Do not wear two-pieces. Do not ask to lead a bible study, we will ask you if we see that you a bearing the correct fruits. Do not is church. Do not associate with your old sinful friends. Do not associate with anyone not saved."

Obviously this flyer is extreme. I do not personally know anyone who was handed this flyer. But, I do personally know that some of these things were said to me and those I know personally and I have one thing to say--only God can tell us what we can and cannot do and only God can tell us who we are and are not. Opinions and "rules" are thrown out there by each of us, and so often we speak on the basis that we are exhorting some truth that will change their life, when I'm reality we are picking apart their life so that they can fit some cookie cutter person we have created. 

God made Us. God formed us. God is the one that will take our hearts and mold them into the magnificent beating organ that can change lives. Just because Susie next door is terrific at organizing a child's birthday party doesn't mean you have to be. Just because Billy's mom Tonya gave up wearing makeup because she didn't like the feel on her face, doesn't mean you have to. Just because Allison homeschools her 7 children and always seems so put together when you see her doesn't mean she is. The only truth in these statements is that they are true for some family some where--it doesn't have to be your family. 

Let God tell you what activities you might enjoy, let God reveal to you every passion that He crafted within your soul.

Read & reflect on Jeremiah 29:11
Notice how it doesn't say, 'I have plans for you & so & so"--the plans He has for each of us are specifically crafted & chosen by Him for His purposes. We cannot allow others to squash pieces of us that God may want to use for His special reasons. We cannot say what God wants to do in someone else's life. We cannot know what way God wants to us, how can we begin to say how He wants to use someone else? 

The answer, we can't.

We simply can't compare ourselves to others!!! We are unique, one of a kind gems in a rare collection held only by One. 




Wednesday, May 22, 2013

I am day 3--I am not

I am not....
.................anything that the enemy tries to convince me I am. The enemy is cunning, deceitful, & wants nothing more than to separate us from God & for us to lose all hope in the One who can defeat him. We cannot let Him have that victory. Our souls are not for him to take pleasure in. Our souls were created for a relationship with the Savior, Prince of Peace & it is within a relationship with Him that the enemy has no barring on our life. He is powerless when the power is Christ. 

Use that power. 

Humble yourself before the throne & admit that the enemy has lies that overwhelm you & threaten to steal your joy--ask Him to fill that emptiness. Ask Him to stand you up tall. We tower over the tallest structures when it's God who is lengthening our body!! 

Read & reflect on John 10:10
Do you ever feel as if a thief is stealing from your life? Do you believe God when He says that Jesus came to bring life & life abundantly? Are you experiencing abundant life? Do you think our idea of an abundant life & God's idea are the same? 

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

I am day 2



Anne stood 5'7" with brown hair and emerald green eyes and she loathed herself. When Anne woke in the mornings and looked in the mirror, she saw nothing but ugly dark circles under her eyes, unmanageable hair, a nose that wasn't centered correctly on her face and was in her opinion two sizes too big. Anne had hated herself since she was a child--now she stands in the mirror at 42 everyday and critiques herself. God's sweet serene voice is muffled by the screaming fits in Anne's head. The enemy has convinced her that there is nothing special about her. No one loves her. She is ugly. She is worthless. 

These are all the same lies that so many of God's precious daughters hear every moment of every day. It breaks His heart. He doesn't see us in nearly the same light as we see ourselves. We see ourselves through sin covered glasses, God sees us through perfect eyes. Perfect eyes that want us to KNOW we are gems in His kingdom--gems that He wants to add to His rare and beautiful collection. A collection that has been in existence since that first disobedient moment in the garden, when He could've turned His back on us the way we turned on Him, but He didn't. And He promises never to. He promise to walk through fire with us, to climb mountains with us, He promises that if we have the faith in Him, we ourselves can move mountains. 

Anne is like so many of us. Anne doesn't think God loves her. Anne thinks she is a hopeless mess with no chance at love from a perfect and understanding Father. But she is wrong. We are all wrong when we think there is anything in our life that can separate us from the love that He longs to pour over our unworthy heads. We are unworthy because of sin within us, not because He doesn't find worth within us--He finds much more than worth. He finds and sees the self that He in His perfectness created. He sees the parts of us that we don't even know exist, parts that He stitched together within our souls. It is within those souls that we can find the strength to see ourselves as He does. It is within our soul that we can allow Him to mold us, shape us, bend us, stretch us and be the rare beautiful gem that He formed. 

Read Isaiah 64:8 
Do you feel as if He is molding you? Do you feel like clay, ready to be shaped into whatever vessel He sees fit? Ae you ready to shine like the gem He truly created you to be, or are the whispers from the enemy still too strong to ignore yet? 

Read & reflect on Jeremiah 1:5 
Do you understand that He knew exactly who you were from that moment you were in your mothers womb and nothing you have ever done in your life stops you from experiencing the life He truly sees fit for your life? 

Monday, May 20, 2013

I am day 1

Read Jeremiah 1:5
Read Micah 7:7-8



I was maybe 13 years old the first time I looked in the mirror and said to myself, "you're fat, you're ugly, you are nothing" anything that would make me see myself as ugly as I felt on the inside. On the inside, there was a fire raging & burning me alive. This fire was lit and active within for almost 20 years, until our Almighty Savior revealed to me the power of His mighty hands and quenched that fire with His hands. His hands squashed that fire within me with one fierce grip, a grip that holds me so tight I don't want to catch my breath. I feel safe within His tight grip. I feel power within me, power that enables me to know the truth about myself....I AM SPECIAL, HOLY, CHOSEN, FORGIVEN, REDEEMED, SANCTIFIED, TRANSFORMED. None of these things happen in the manner in which I think they should happen. None of these things happen in the manner in which others think they should happen. No, they happen on His perfect and loving time. He wants to be an integral part of my life, walking with me through every painful and tripped up step. He wants continual communication with me so that I may hear what it is that He wants! I get so bogged down with what others say about me that I lose the truth that He gives--that I am the daughter of the risen King and nothing can ever separate me from Him. He doesn't just tell us these things over and over again, He fills our soul with this unquenchable longing for Him, and if that longing isn't satisfied by Him we continually search for a filler. I don't want a filler, I only want Him. This is something that my flesh fights against, but my soul longs for. When I drown out the clanging cymbals in this world & listen to His ever sweet voice, the negative things I think about myself or the negative things that others say, they just simply don't hurt as badly. When I look at myself through His eyes, I'm amazed and astonished at how simply radiant I feel. That radiance is His Spirit within me. That radiance is His ambiance reflecting outward. 

I am who He formed in my mothers womb--before sin crept in, before this world tainted my existence--I am who the Potter formed. I am miry clay ready to be shaped into whatever tool He would have me be. I am ready to be refined, to be set into only His transformation fire & I look forward to each and every change that He enables me to make. I long to be the vessel that He uses to bring glory to His kingdom. 

Reflect on Jeremiah 1:5

What does this make you feel? Do you feel like clay sitting on a shelf collecting dust while He waits to refine you, or do you feel like you've walked through that fire already & are now collecting dust as you sit on a shelf? Or better, do you feel like He has a firm grip on your handle & can be used in whatever fashion He sees fit? 

Reflect on Micah 7:7-8







Friday, January 27, 2012

Mary Magdalene: Delivered from the Darkness


“Now when He rose early on the first day of the week, He appeared first to Mary Magdalene, out of whom He had cast seven demons.”
                                                     Mark 16:9

Mary Magdalene is probably the most well-known woman and also the least-understood character in Scripture. There is almost no information given on her background, life story, or family life but she still emerges as one of the most prominent women of the New Testament. She is mentioned by name in all four gospels, typically in reference to the events of Jesus’ crucifixion. She was the first person Jesus revealed Himself to after His resurrection.

Mary Magdalene had a dark past—one in which she was held in bondage by demons in which Jesus delivered her from.
“Mary called Magdalene, out of whom had come seven demons.”
Luke 8:2
“….Mary Magdalene, from whom he had cast out seven demons.”
Mark 16:9

The demons Mary Magdalene lived in bondage to is the only detail we are ever given of her past, except for the small clue that is given through her name, “Magdalene”. It is assumed by scholars that she was from the village of Magdala. Magdala was mentioned in Matthew 15:39 and was a small fishing village located on the northwest shore of the Sea of Galilee—2-3 miles north of the Roman city of Tiberias and 5.5 miles from Capernaum. It is thought that Magdalene was used to distinguish her from the many other Mary’s mentioned in Scripture.

Jesus’ ministry involved a number of exorcisms in the region in which Mary Magdalene came from. The symptoms of a demonic possession in the New Testament vary depending upon the individual story. Sometimes they were insane—as in the case of the demon-possessed men who lived near the graveyard in Matt. 8:28-34 & Mark 5:1-5. The man in Mark 5:5 mutilated himself with stones night and day. More frequently however, physical infirmities seem to have been the manifestation of the possession. Such as: deafness—Mark 9:25, blindness—Matt. 12:22, inability to speak—Matt 9:32-33, fits and seizures—Mark 1:26, Luke 9:38-40, and general infirmities—Luke 13:11-13

Note: be sure not to assume, as many do, that biblical descriptions of demon possessions were actually manifestations of epilepsy, dementia or any other psychological and physiological afflictions. The Bible makes clear distinctions between the two --Matt. 4:24

Demon possession involves a real and true bondage to an evil spirit—a real, personal, fallen spirit-creature. This spirit indwells an individual and torments them. This indwelling is an affliction and not a sin. The individuals in the NT who are portrayed as being inflicted with demons are always characterized as being tormented, not willful wrongdoers. They were all miserable, sorrowful, lonely people. There were often outcasts, and pariahs by polite society. Their lives are generally described as broken and ruined by the possession—until Jesus frees them of course.

Mary Magdalene was no exception—she was tormented by seven demons. She was a prisoner in her own body, being tormented by these demons of Satan’s. Scripture deliberately omits the time of her life that was ruled by these spirits and simply mentions it as to say that she owes her life to Jesus—as we all truly do.

Christ delivered Mary from this life of possession. Both Mark and Luke mention her former possession only to celebrate the life Christ freed her to—His goodness and grace toward her. Christ is magnified because of His gracious power and the fact that He was able to free her from what held her so tightly in bondage.

One interesting fact that I found: demon possessed people in Scripture never came to Christ to be delivered—they were usually brought by someone else (Matt 8:16, 9:32, 12:22 & Mark 9:20) or He sought them out Himself (Matt. 8:28-29) and on occasion were already present upon His arrival and would speak out with dismay or surprise (Mark 1:23-24, Luke 8:28). Evil spirits never voluntarily entered the presence of Christ. This was interesting to me. But, what was pressed upon my heart is the need of us as believers to watch out for those that we love that may be held in bondage to real evil spirits. So many times we can think that that person simply needs to get their life together or somehow God is trying them because of their sinful life—this is not the case as I previously mentioned. These people were being afflicted by spirits beyond their control. We need to be loving and pray for these people if we know someone that may be afflicted, seek help if it comes to that point.

How and when Mary Magdalene was delivered is never revealed to us, but Christ most certainly set her free. Having been set free from sin and demons, she became a slave of righteousness—Romans 6:18. Her life was far from simply reformed—it was completely transformed.

Mary Magdalene then entered the close circle of disciples who traveled with Jesus.
Luke 8:1-3

Christ encouraged men and women to take up His yoke and learn from Him—Mary Magdalene was one of these followers. She remained faithful to Him even when many turned away. When she first appeared in Luke’s gospel it was a time of opposition to Jesus and His ministry. Many people were offended by His teachings, but she stayed at His side. She followed Him to Galilee for that final Passover celebration.

Matthew, Mark & John record that Mary was present at the crucifixion. There was nothing for her and the few others that stood as spectators to do except watch as their Beloved was crucified. It must have been completely gut-wrenching to watch the masses treat the One whom they loved so greatly with such distaste—spitting on the life that He lived for them!

Mary Magdalene was most assuredly grateful to Christ for His deliverance of her life and her loyalty was proved up until the end—she is the one who found out where He would be laid to rest after His death. Joseph of Arimathea asked Pilate for the body of Christ in order to give Him a proper burial—Joseph has access because he was a prominent member of the Sanhedrin (Council) Mark 15:43.

Mary Magdalene and Mary the mother of Joses secretly followed Joseph to the tomb and “observed where He was laid”. Mark 15:47

Mary Magdalene’s love for Christ was as strong as anyone’s! She took note of where He was laid and had every intention of returning to give Him a proper burial with oils and spices—however she would be surprised to find Jesus Himself upon her arrival the next morning.

Read -- John 20:1-13

Mary Magdalene was distraught at the thought of not burying Jesus properly—upon finding the tomb empty. She ran out of the tomb and probably onto the same path she had come on to go find help. She then ran into Peter and John who were on their way to the burial site as well. It is then that they encounter the angels who inform them that “He is not here; for He is risen” Matt. 28:6, Mark 16:6 & Luke 26:6

They were also instructed to go tell and tell the disciples that He is risen from the dead. At this point it seems that only Mary Magdalene was left. Matt. 28:8

The angel appeared and asked why she was weeping and she explained why she was distraught. It was then that she turned and saw Jesus. At first she, as many others who encountered Him after His resurrection, did not recognize Him. He was glorified now, if it was anything like the account in Revelation 1:14 He would have looked much different.

This was the first person that Jesus revealed Himself to—a woman who had lived in captivity to seven demons; seven demons that Jesus had to cast out of her, a woman. During a time when women had no rights, were not even permitted to speak in public, Jesus chose her as the first that He would reveal Himself to. He knew that she would be there, He knows everything. He chose her, set her apart and appointed her to a task. (Jeremiah 1:5)

This is a distinct honor He bestowed upon Mary—to be the first to witness Him and hear Him. This is her extraordinary legacy—one in which no demons could stop. No one can share this honor with her or take it away from her. We should all seek to imitate this deep and abounding love that she exhibited for Jesus—one that took her to His side even in the midst of tragedy!

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Fellowship

More than Friends …. Sisters

Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
Last night I had a small get together at my home. I invited the women (& children and spouse/significant others) from my ministry, Women Walking Upright, over for a Christmas dinner. My home was decorated (minus the tree which we haven’t had the chance to get yet), I had presents for the children and women and Christmas music playing the background.



We had pot roast with veggies, backed mac & cheese, mashed potatoes, apple pie and chocolate cake. It was delish! We sat around and chatted, fellowshipped, my family sang a small song, and it was just simply …. refreshing.

The women who came are the ones who have come to pretty much every meeting here at my home, faithfully for close to a year. They have sent me encouraging emails, called to uplift me on the phone, and been a means of strength when I needed Him to work through someone. They have faithfully served the Almighty King and I cannot thank them enough.

Shedding myself of this world, ridding myself of the waste I used to call my life, it has been difficult to say the least. It’s not enough for me to have Jesus be my Savior, I want Him as Lord of my life. With Him there, I want to walk in an upright manner, bringing Him praise and glory every step of the way. These women have helped me learn to do that. They have showed me His love through their loving and tender hands and I thank Him for bringing them last night and into my life in such a mighty way.

I look at my girls, my sweet Lily Grace and Hayley, and I pray that one day they can look at their life and have the sincere, true friendships that I have made. Without it, life is a little less sweet. With it, God’s love abounds in such gracious ways through their the hands of others sometimes!

Would my love for Christ be as strong without them? Absolutely.

But, my growth in loving others, that would not be where it is today.

As I shared the other day, finding women to come beside me and love me in a non-judgemental way because of my past has been a real struggle for me. Many (not all because believe me I have some seriously strong older women in my life that have embraced me in the most magnificent ways) of the older women have been abrasive and hard to connect with and it’s been extremely hard for me to not turn into that. I do not want to put walls up. I do not want to be rude, short, or curt with people.

I want to emulate our Lord and Savior and I want to live uprightly, to the best of my fleshly existence. When I fall, I want someone to say, “It’s okay, He loves you, get right back up and ask Him for help”. {Not be gossiped about on my immaturity. I am a new Christian, but just as even a mature Christian, I am a sinner in desperate need of redemption}

These women have been the light I yearned for and I thank God for them each day! There were many women who were not able to come last night for many different reasons, and each holds a deep and profound place in my heart. But these ladies brought much love and joy to my life last night! 



Thank you girls! You have become more than just friends, you have become … Sisters