Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Trusting in Him

Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one’s youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them!

Psalm 127:3-5
I’ve been in a strange place the last 2 weeks or so. Wanting to trust in all that the Lord has for our family, but at the same time being terrified as to what is ahead of us.

This morning as I scoured through the blogging world to find encouragement, I found myself in tears as I read Erin’s post over at Captivated by Grace. WOW! She wrote on trust—being in the darkness and being unsure of what is ahead and trusting that God has a plan.

Oh how true this is for our family right now.

The day I took the test my heart sank a little. I was confused and scared, admittedly. Another baby …. I found myself asking, “really God, really?” How could this be a good time to add to our already large family?

This time last year Brian was recovering from a collapsed lung, out of work for months. Christmas was difficult as he wasn’t able lift anything more than 10 lbs and was recovering. Once he recovered from his ailment, the job he was working placed him in Tyson’s Corner, where it cost us more financially to get him to work then he brought home. In June he left that job because the money going in outweighed the money coming out. Many people around us disagreed with this decision, but we followed what we believed God had for us. Brian picked up as much side work as he could until a permanent position became available somewhere close to home. A month later, July, I fell ill to a mysterious illness. 8 weeks of my life were spent in recovery, many of those Brian was unable to work as well because I couldn’t care for the kids. We are now 5 months in from that difficult time and are still struggling financially, greatly, although Brian is working 2 full time jobs.

Through every obstacle though we have felt the presence of God strongly and have found ourselves depending on Him for the strength we couldn’t come up with in our own human form.


This time that we are experiencing is dark, threatens to cut off our light.

But, He is our light. He illuminates our path, and He directs that path once we have been set upon it.

I will not fear this time, I will rejoice in the plans the Lord has for me.

Plans to prosper me, and not harm me, plans to give us a hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

I know that my God, He is mighty and strong, and He will never forsake me. He has a plan for our family, one that evidently includes a LARGE family {wink} and I embrace whatever He has for us.

I know, without a doubt, that although the darkness is scary and I truly, at this moment, do not know what to do, He will reveal Himself to us in a mighty way.

Thank you God, for this reminder of TRUSTING YOU!


1 comment:

Kendra said...

I just came across your blog and wanted to comment. I love that scripture from jeremiah and I believe in it firmly. I'm excited for you and your growing family! I love Erin's blog, too. She is so inspiring!